02 14 19

Monkey,

Today is Valentine's Day. This is our second Valentine's together as a couple; albeit also the second Valentine's that we haven't been able to spend together. Today I have a mixed feeling: a part of me feels a bit lonely because of your absence; but a part of me is happy because I know you're there, and that you love me. I've gotten used to the fact that we've been apart for almost a month now, but the longingness is still unbearable. You absence renders me incomplete. It feels as though that the now empty spaces beside me you used to occupy have now become a void. Such empty spaces that only you could ever fill. 

It's lonely out here, alright. But I try to get by in my own ways. Today, to pacify this loneliness, I wore the red shirt Yeng gave you on our graduation. Funny because it fits me, perhaps it's the Universe transpiring its magic to alleviate my feelings even just for today. And somehow, though I am aware it might sound crazy, I feel you're with me everywhere I go today. I feel comforted by you, and even if it's craziness, I wouldn't have it any other way.

Today is Valentine's Day. I would again parry the looming dread of your absence, like how I fight that feeling everyday. But I hope that I would be allowed to have a wish today because my Valentine isn't with me. And I wish that for the next Valentines that would come in our lifetimes,  we wouldn't have to spend it apart anymore. 

I love you and I miss you so much.

Your forever Valentine,

Babi