02 10 19

Monkey,

The past few days had been arduous. I was down with fever, colds, and cough. It was the hardest since you left because you weren't here to take care of me. You weren't here, my human blanket, to shield me from the cold nights. You weren't here to wake me up in the middle of the night for my meds. But of course, we had to make ends meet with our time apart. Despite you not being here physically, you were there virtually. You reminded me constantly of my meds, the regular drinking of water, and to take things slow at work so I wouldn't exhaust myself too much. At night, you would watch me sleep, and that was good enough for me. Knowing that I am being watched made me feel warm, safe, and comforted.

Those were very little gestures, but those littlest gestures are one of the many reasons why you have my heart in your hands, why my world revolves around you and Phen and our future. Those very little gestures make my heart grow fonder together with your absence. I know this absence, albeit bittersweet is only temporary, and that someday we will be together again, forever. And I will keep waiting until that time comes.

Today we celebrate our 16th month as a couple. Wow, 16 months of love. Although our first few months were shaky and rough, we still made it this far. Because we both choose to hold on, because we both choose to fight for our love, to trust our love for each other.

So I am writing this to tell you this, that you can mark my word, that I will always fight for you, for our love, and I will always fight for my love for you. I will never give up on you no matter how hard it gets, and I hope will do the same no matter what.

I love you so, so much it makes my heart giddy all the time.
I miss you so much my heart longs for you every second.
Please come home soon.

Cheers to our 16th and to our forever,
Babi